nancy's

what kind of person are you?
are you a person who's honesy to yourself and always speaks out of your thoughts
or you are the faky kind of type, who wants to be "a nice person" all the time?

I sometimes wonder what kind of preson I am.

I used to be the goody goody one who was afraid to hurt people's heart and always pushes myself to the front line to clean up the shit, no matter what it is.
However, as time goes by, I felt that I lost my inner self and was being dishonest to my suroundings.

Sometimes I wonder: "why do you have to be so tough on yourself?"
"Is it really a bad thing to obey your wantings and just leave all other aside?"

I never have the answer myself, and yet never found myself a lovely person to be with.

It's like the more unclear and the more struggle I am with the idea of "being good and nice", the more I hated myself.

Still searching, still not clear of what I am.
Maybe I was too afraid to let it go, and maybe I just don't have enough courage to break it through.

Oh what about you, my dear?
what kind of person are you?